I’ve been meeting a lot of great people and reuniting with the great people that have helped me mold into the person I am today. I have a problem with getting close because I’d rather you not come into my life if you’re going to leave. MAYBE it has to do with things like my dad not being around, but honestly, who likes being left especially if you’ve invested your time/heart/love into a person. I never really did that with dad so that argument doesn’t even work..
Basically, I want to be able to love the way Jesus loved his people. An unconditional kind where even though he knew someone was going to do him wrong, he loved because that’s what he stood for. A sacrificial love even though the other was undeserving.
Sometimes I make friends with people/meet them and I’m not too sure about them. I don’t want to fall for their tricks, played a fool, or hurt. However, if I truly am a Christian who wants to live the way Christ did, I have to be willing to take those risks and LOVE as best as I can. I may get hurt by someone’s actions/decisions if their intentions weren’t good in the first place, but I know that I’ve hurt God numerous amount of times.
SO THERE IT IS, I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt. I’m going to love you the way Jesus loved me. IF YOU SCREW ME OVER I’ll probably get really pissed and want the whole world to know that you really suck tapioca balls HARD but that anger is caused by sin.. and in the end of the day, I am shown grace and so I should show it to you.
On another note, I’ve been realizing more and more how I talk down on myself. No, I’m not the best at guitar, but seriously I’m learning and everything takes time. No, I’m not a classically trained pianist, but I know a pretty note when I hear one and my efforts are true. The point is, I sing. I’ve always sang. Singing is what got me this far. (Okay, ultimately God, but you get my drift.) With the voice God gave me, so many opportunities came my way.. without a guitar and without a piano. I just don’t want to forget that because I feel the pressure to have to be amazing at all these things when it’s okay that my songs aren’t complex. I just have to be honest and the rest will come.
I watched the latest episode of Modern Family, one of my favorite tv shows of all freaking time.
And it’s true.. when we were younger, we got made fun of for being different.. because we didn’t belong.. but at one point in our life something changes and all we wanna do is be different.. stand out.. be spectacular.
"It Started with a Voice" by Jennifer Chung (copyright 2010)
It started with a voice. Mama danced to music, Even when I was in the womb.
It started with a voice. She shared her art with others, And I thought, well, I should too. But what could I do? I was just a little girl, In this black and white colored world.
So I took the voice, and kept it silent. But I took it wherever I went. My desires, dreams, & wishes filled. Mariah, Whitney, Celine instilled, The belting power within me. But ever so secretly, Oh & of course Walt Disney
It started with a voice…
A work in progress.. one of my newest songs. I decided to keep this fully acapella because, well, it all started with a voice. just.. a voice.
Everyday I learn more and more how flawed I truly am. Even though I love my family and friends more than I could ever express, I can’t promise I won’t ever do anything that will hurt them. The same goes for them. When their words or actions hurt me, I can’t disqualify their love immediately. That’s the nature of sin. It doesn’t mean we give up on the ones we love, and the ones that love us. Love is battlefield. We don’t fall in love with people and come out of it the same person. The ones we love challenge us and make us better.
We have to love each other despite it all.
Music & Lyrics by Jennifer Chung Copyright 2010
Everyone makes mistakes, But we also do some good. That’s the risk we take To know which friends are here for good.
I will let you down, I’m sure. I got a lot of work to do, and more.
Could you love me despite it all, All these scars? Because these very cursed things are what got me this far. I am willing to change, and I’m ready to grow. Just say you’ll love me despite it all, And then show, that your word is good.
People tend to come and go, But I’d rather that you stay. 'Cause if there's one thing I know, Where there’s a will there is a way.
You will let me down, I’m sure. We got a lot of work to do, and more.
I could love you despite it all, All your scars. Besides, those very cursed things Are what got you this far. Are you willing to change? Are you ready to grow? I’ll say I’ll love you despite it all, and then show, That my word is good.
Show you that my word is good. Show you that my love is good.
to be happy with myself, who I am, and what I have to offer.
It’s easy to let myself down because I think I’m not enough. It’s definitely more of a challenge to know my worth and that I am enough. The world has a skewed standard of what is good and bad and its easy to dig deep into that perspective. I know that the lens I look through is clearer because God is sovereign.. I just really have to keep my eye on the prize - a less self-serving, yet glorious one.
- I’m graduating early. I didn’t think I’d actually be able, but I’m graduating a year early. Spring quarter will be my last at UC Irvine as long as I work hard to finish those 24 units. France is a definite go and it’ll be my last schooling for my undergraduate career. By doing this I’m saving $10,000+ and moving towards working harder for the arts.. my passions.
- I’m booked a show practically every week for the next month. ISN’T THAT CRAZY?! Berkeley, Fremont, New York, and then Malibu.
Being able to juggle these things is something I can say I’m proud of. People have a hard time dealing with school ALONE, yet I live this.. pseudo-dual life. I’m humbled by God’s grace to me, letting me do the very things I love, I just have to count my blessings and not let others get to me.. in the end of the day, I know my story and my life. I know that I’ve come a long way, and there’s still so much more to experience.
1) OKAY so this morning I had to register for classes at 8:15AM. I was really insecure about it because there were only two upper-div drama lit classes that were being offered and they had been full. Last night, there was ONE SPOT LEFT. I crossed my fingers and prayed that the spot would still be available for me. Low and behold.. it was not. But I knew that it wouldn’t be the end of the world so I just signed up for whatever else I had to get done. I go wash my face and think to myself, “Why not check ONE more time to see if any spots opened.” AND YES THERE ARE TWO SPOTS AVAILABLE FOR THE CLASS I NEED TO TAKE! So God provided, as usual, and I am taking the class I need to be on the road of graduating early :)
2) I had enough time this morning to make lunch for jane and I. Salad and chicken hamburgers! YAY. it always feels good to know I won’t spend money outside of home.
3) For breakfast I brought my fruit cup which is filled. I work in an office for student affairs and there are constantly students waiting for the counselors. I offered fruit to the students waiting and even made friends with one other Korean girl. She was really quiet and shy but I could tell that she was a really nice girl. I kept offering her fruit while she waited and tried to make her feel at home. She got to see a counselor, and right before she left she handed me a Welch’s grape juice as a thank you. WHAT THE HECK? HOW AWESOME! what goes around comes around and I didn’t expect anything at all!
4) Yesterday I walked around with my red canteen for water and lost it. I was saddened.. but IT WAS AT WORK! So it’s like I never lost my canteen!
:) I am happy and I hope all of you have a wonderful day as well.
lessons of the day?
1) Be persistent. If I wasn’t persistent for taking that class, I wouldn’t have gotten and probably would’ve missed my chance.
2) What goes around comes around and treat others the way you would like to be treated!
<3 Thank you Lord for all your blessings and teaching me everyday!
The secret isn’t to find someone you love spending time with, I love spending time with a lot of people. The secret isn’t to find someone that you find attractive. I find a lot of people attractive for many different reasons. The secret isn’t to find someone who is nice, there are tons of nice people in the world.
The secret is to find someone who wants exactly what you want. Someone who is ready to give you all they’ve got, and in turn be ready to accept all the love you have to give. The world is filled with people in relationship teeter-totters of “loves you more” + “i have to act mean so they will like me back” or “I am just not ready.” Please do not waste any more of your precious time. You are an amazing creature. You deserve to be loved until your insides melt. Don’t give up on all the things you want. When you meet the right person you will have zero doubt in your mind. zero.
Performing at the Chinese Lunar New Year festival was a lot different than the past venues. It was later in the day so a lot of people had left, plus the weather was kind of scaring people on whether or not it was going to rain, but I have to admit that the performance itself was a lot of fun and I’m glad Johnny and I decided to do it.
It’s interesting how as I perform my originals more and more, they become second nature. I can find myself thinking different thoughts while I sing like, “Oh wow, that person is singing along to my song.” “I wonder if they’re gonna start walking away from their seats.” “Yayyy I played around with that part of the melody.” All in all, I’m having fun with my music.
It’s a rush and 20 minutes goes by really quickly.
I had a group of high schoolers who were there that supported me like crayyyyyyy-z. I heart them because they are the ones who help me acknowledge what I do with such positivity. I hope I can be someone they can look up to. I say this with my younger brother in mind as well. He’ll be going to college next year.. and that’s pretty much when I started my so called “YouTube career.” You never really know what’s to come.
There’s a certain kind of responsibility that comes upon you when you start putting yourself out in the open for everyone to see and hear you. I’ll write a post about that another time.
Things to look forward to: 1) Acoustic Shuffle at North High in torrance 2) UC Berkeley gig 3) Fremont gig at American High School 4) Possible gig in Vassar College? AHH i hope! :)
For more details on shows/gig information, check out the vid:
Posssibly! If you guys could please help me out by voting once a day, and telling all your friends, it would mean the world to me! I love how much support i’ve been getting, and i have to thank all of you! But let’s keep going :)
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The staff and director of the UC Paris Study Center look forward to welcoming you in Paris this summer. We have an exciting summer planned, and we hope that your preparations for your trip go well. We will be writing to you on a regular basis between now and your arrival in Paris. For now, your attention is focused on the many aspects of UC application paperwork, but soon your attention will turn to academic registration and pre-departure preparations for your travel, housing, financing, and many other practical aspects of such an exciting adventure. We will be here, along with EAP and your UC campus, to help you make your way successfully through all the stages of your journey.
Summertime is an extra special time in Paris. There is much to do for free, with a student discount, or on a frugal budget. The city is alive with outdoor activities as the weather is warm to hot and the sun sets around 9PM. Many Parisians escape the heat of the day by strolling leisurely along the Seine or the Canal St.-Martin or by visiting Paris Plage, those sandy beaches on the Right Bank that cover the riverside roadways closed just for this event. Others enjoy the activities within the large number of city parks and gardens, as well as the enormous 'bois' (woods) that anchor the east and west end of the city.
Strolling represents the important French cultural tradition of perceptive wandering among the sights of the city with the intent of having casual encounters that entertain and enlighten. And since the theatre of the street is truly at the heart of Paris, walking is the way to move from one scene to another. Small group walking tours with local experts on Paris and its lifestyle are a more intimate and flexible way to see Paris and a wonderful way to beat the high cost of a tour bus. So bring one or two pair of good walking shoes and leave uncomfortable ones behind. You will likely be walking more than you have at any other time of your life.
Recently, bicycling has become extremely popular and inexpensive bicycle tours in and near the city has become a favorite ways to sightsee on a budget. In spite of what you may have heard, the French do jog and have many places to do so safely. Firefighters and police can be seen jogging in training groups early morning and evenings. Parisians enjoy tennis, soccer, swimming, skateboarding in their free time in summer. All these activities come at little or no cost and are wonderful ways to reach out and make French friends.
In recent years, the French have embraced picnicking with enthusiasm and flair. It is quite a change from the days when no one could place a foot on public lawns. Our students have coupled picnics with times to study, people watch, or socialize with friends in lovely locations. The savings on one's food budget is significant.
Students under 26 now get in to all public museums (e.g. Louvre) free and into most private museums with a student discount. As a result, students visit museums in higher number and more frequently, with programs being developed especially for their visits. France boasts a dizzying array of museums, galleries and salons devoted to virtually any topic imaginable. The French often entertain themselves by spending part of their weekends visiting various museum exhibits.
Other major student discounts at cinemas, where the French love of film is celebrated in a style worth seeing. Students also get a discount on train tickets within Europe. And food and flea markets abound in Paris, where the freshest of foods can be found alongside various 'treasures' of every kind imaginable.
So summer can be delightful time for discoveries while living on a frugal budget. And all these experiences are heightened as your language skills improve and your cultural sense of Paris and the French grows. See you soon!
I’m only going to let myself go if:
1) I have enough money for it. 2) I can play the guitar to accompany myself so I can still make videos in France.
I got an ellie badge and therefore I am part of the club. <3
Suppose that makes him my carl!
February 14, 2010 has been the most relaxing & thoughtful valentines day ever.
Started with church, lunch with the boypren’s familia, a surprise visit to Color Me Mine and made each other cups for 3 hours hahahahha, waited for boiling crab for two hours (in the mean time went to target to receive the surprise which was my badge! and took a nap on the picnic chair area in target [yanno we ghetto like that]), hung out with bf’s best friend’s familia and friendsies for chinese lunar new year party, and saw a really cute video made by him and ankur for shreena and I. Aren’t we such lucky girls?
yes, I am loved.
Thing is, he treats me well everyday - not just on Valentines day. That’s how you know you got yourself a keeper. Someone who lets you know you’re their Valentine rain or shine, all day, all the time.